My First Guest
by Scott Stewart. Get to know more about this amazing human being in this interview: A Man with Soul: Scott Stewart.
I went for a walk around my neighborhood today. I haven’t done that in quite a while. I had never walked my neighborhood before before Jenny came into my life. I was a runner. Further and faster was all I knew. She was only in my life for a short while, but as I walk today, I am amazed how different my life is because of that dog.
I was sober a little over a year when a friend asked me to watch his dog for a week or two. He was a friend from my past life, so I was well aware his words didn’t mean much. I was learning to live a better way. I had to be open to suggestions. Trust the process. I was still very confused at times by my new spiritual program. I didn’t know what any of it meant, but I sure didn’t want a damn dog. One thing was certain, my best thinking had left me bankrupt—morally, spiritually, financially. It was my practice then, whatever my first thought, to do the opposite. It had to be better. So much to learn.
I came home from work one night and there she was. No note, no tags, no nothing. Just her . . . sitting in my chair. I tried to call my friend, not that I expected an answer. I never did hear from him again. You see, as you set the intention to change your vibrational frequency, those that don’t serve you will move out of your life. What you need to improve that frequency will appear. I am listening. I am trusting. But I wanted a soul mate and was given a dog. So, so much to learn.
The first morning I woke up with her I let her out the back door. The fact that I had a huge fenced-in backyard was one reason it would be ok to keep her a while. Yet every time I looked out, there she was just sitting there looking back at me. Waiting.
No way, I thought. “Look at this yard!” I yelled at her. First thought—damn—do the opposite. So we went for a walk. We walked every morning, rain or shine, every day thereafter.
One day I was running late for work. As I got harried and rushing around, she got excited from all my activity. I tripped over her on my way out the door and cursed at her. I told her to get away from me and walked out. Later that night I was thinking about how I left her. This guest I welcomed in my home, in my life. A guest who was just sharing in the excitement I was creating. A guest who, no matter what I did or how long I was gone, would greet me with joyous, happy energy when I got home. This was the first soul to enter my new life. She deserved to be treated better. We became best of friends after that. What amazing healing and growth happened for me because of Jenny.
I came in from a run one day to find her spread out on my yoga mat. Perfectly centered, sun shining on her. Peaceful and content. I took a picture and posted it on Facebook with the caption “down dog.” The picture captured everything she represented to me, so I made it my cover photo. It is still there today.
I realized just how much I was growing inside when the day came for Jenny to leave me. In the past, I held on to relationships long after they had served their purpose. Trying to impose my will, how I thought it should be, never worked. I hurt people and put myself in a position to be hurt. I didn’t want that for myself any longer. When the time came for Jenny to go, I was sad, but I knew it was the way it was supposed to be. It just felt like the right thing.
The idea of that dog rescuing another lonely soul brings a smile to my heart. She wouldn’t be the last K9 I was to have a special relationship with, but a guy never forgets his first. She had done for me what I could never do for myself. Her greatest gift came long after she was gone.
“My First Guest” is a reference to the “Having a Guest in Your Life” chapter of The Soulmate Experience, which you can download here. ~Mali & Joe, authors of The Soulmate Experience: A Practical Guide to Creating Extraordinary Relationships, 52 Prescriptions for Happiness, and the upcoming book The Soulmate Lover, and creators of Mantras for Making Love