by Leslie Escoto, host of Tell A Story Online
I had an awakening today. I awoke very early, in fact the middle of the night. Something was bothering me… nagging my mind. I’ve been very overloaded lately; so much to deal with, to handle, to endure and so I just thought it was more of the weight I am carrying on my shoulders.
So, I flipped on the TV and started watching an old Gene Kelly/Judy Garland movie, Me and My Gal. It was so poignant and sweet and I just broke down in tears and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. Later in the day I realized why I was crying. I wanted to feel that love, to be that loved. And then what I realized is that it was up to me: I needed to give myself the love that I was sobbing about. I had to give myself permission to care for me, to cherish me, to adore me, to love me.
I have never been able to do that before. It’s been a long, long, arduous journey of self-awareness and acceptance. Today, for whatever reason, I was graced with the ultimate truth. That I am okay by myself. That I’m a really good woman, with God-given talents and abilities, with a great family who supports and loves me, wonderful friends who care, and a life for which I must be grateful.
A giant smile crossed my face, made my crinkles show, and I fell to my knees and looked upward. I closed my eyes and yelled out loud, “Thank you dear Spirit, for hanging in there with me, sheltering me, encouraging me, kicking me in the ass when I needed it, and finally providing the light I need to show me the way.”
I feel as if a huge weight has been lifted. I feel free and easy and happy and loved—by me!!!!! And you know what? I have a lot of love to share and I can’t think of a more deserving person to receive it… right now that is. I know there is someone out there who will want my love but for now, someone is here to finally accept it from me. Ahhhhhhh.
Yes, I’m okay.
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