A Zen Veteran Poem
by Mike Pas
Mindfulness….what a concept
Breathing….what a concept
Accepting without judging….what a concept
I used to know the Yang-style short form of Tai Chi
I just did Qui Gong for the first time in years 2 days ago
I have been physically sick for over a month but am getting better but the psychological fallout will take awhile
It is hot in the area I live….humid too.
I am an American. I am a combat veteran. I am an emergency nurse.
I woke up….lay in bed and thanked (insert higher power) for another day of life.
To watch over the few friends I have.
I did not shower. I just had to walk 400 metres to the drug store.
I put on my jeans….they fell to the floor….I cursed.
Then I thought maybe the changes I have made did something. The jeans that did not fit 6 months ago, fit.
(don’t be hating) I will not be a victim….nor will I allow another human to be one either. Obeying the strict laws….I put my concealed 45 caliber pistol and 2 extra magazines on my person.
A month ago walking 100 metres was difficult….had to stop and rest my lungs.
I mindfully walked to the store and then a wonderful thing happened.
I live in a man cave apartment.
I stopped by the entrance to this 30-year-old apartment complex.
OVER ONE HUNDRED birds were flying and singing as the sun set. A cornucopia of song.
I stopped….I went into a Tai Chi-Qui Gong stance….My spine stretching to the heavens.
360 degrees about me I saw mature trees both deciduous leafed out and healthy oaks. The ferns were upright so green… Annual flowers burst out of some trees.
I stopped. Mindfully breathed. Mindfully opened my eyes, my ears, my heart, my soul.
I am alive. I made it. Today….this moment may be ephemeral but mindfully I embraced the beauty around.
I walked mindfully back home….but with a smile so beautific.
My few friends may not be a lot in numbers but they support me and pray for me. I have made some FRIENDS here at the SME that I forgot about…but they are always here.
Thank you, Mike, for your big heart and your hard-earned insight! ~Mali & Joe, authors of The Soulmate Experience: A Practical Guide to Creating Extraordinary Relationships, 52 Prescriptions for Happiness, and the upcoming book The Soulmate Lover, and creators of Mantras for Making Love